Like we spent the best part of two years together and I felt a real connection with her. We had so much in common and were planning a future together, although with no hard plans like plane tickets etc. We stayed together when she went to Uni but this is when I messed up and cheated on her with my ex. I’ll explain the circumstances but I’m not trying to make excuses for myself or actions. Basically, my ex and I had a history but I was completely emotionally over her at this point and it was a momentary mistake of lust at the point. I felt like I needed human contact at that malaysian vackra kvinnor point and I missed my girl when she was at uni so much.
Anyway, I came to the conclusion at that point that I should never tell her that it happened because I knew it wouldn’t happen again and if I did tell her it would ruin our chances of a passionate and loving relationship. This was selfish of me but I thought it would be for the greater good in terms of our relationship. The next morning she reveals to me something else that she wasn’t supposed to find out about that I told her the night before when we were intoxicated.
Fast forward year and a bit of amazing and happy relationship although some of it was long distance to the new years 2018 and I’m at a party with her and I see my ex there and there’s some confrontation
She goes back to uni then breaks up with me the next day. I couldn’t handle it and I thought since we were now broken up she deserved to know the truth (like she did all along) so I messaged her about it and told her outright what happened when it happened and how it happened and the circumstances. Fast forward to now, she has called me a few times and messaged me a few times late at night when she was drunk and or depressed and I felt horrible because I was her first boyfriend and first time, so naturally, I responded because she seemed to be in a really bad place without me. Continue reading…